hw...

do u expect me to study...

when dere's a siao person in my rm???...

my bro's crazy...

keep disturbing mii...

wah laoz...

enough le lahx...

results???...

i didnt do a single thing today...

thx 2 him...

laoz...

~loner by heart~

damn him...

for those hu know tat i play gunbound...

my avartar , AOD , mysteriously disappeared...

n i found out...

it's my bro..

hu go n delete them...

when i confronted him...

i ask ...

' y u go n delete my avartar? '

he replied...

' wad?... cannot mehx? '

i was lyk ...

wth...

he doesnt feel sorry at all...

then wad can i do ...

hack back?...

no thx...

i dun wanna do the wrong thing...

~ loner by heart ~

crap...

2nd time tio caught hair...

ytd i went to cut , $8...

today ... another $6...

tink i rich lyk tis...

sianz... oso can do nth about it...

$14 juz lyk tis gone... wah sianz...

then next week got tailor...

then wad again... i will tio caught again?...

pants...

reali sianz diaoz...

support...

frm frendz...

it's so great...

haishx...

i better stay out of trouble nowadays ba...

cant afford to be any...

my uniform n pants ba...

haiz...

~ loner by heart ~

it's painful...

i noe i said tis many times le...

band probs...

school probs...

homework...

home...

myself...

i reali gonna collapse le...

nth to hold onto ...

tears flowing nw...

wif the quarell wif my mum juz nw...

it's hard to control my tears...

y has it be so difficult.?...

i dont care le...

fall , fall ba...

it's lyk im struggling wif all these stuffs...

n yet im bullied by pp in sch...

mum...

brother...

doenst anyone reali understands me...

im trying so damn hard already...

wads the result? nothing...

n it's lyk ... i work hard... n i get nothing back...

wads tis...

nvm......

~ loner by heart ~

i wonder...

sumtimes...

im the onli boy in euphonium...

which is frm last yr...

n i wonder...

y izzit...

im so scared of failure?...

i scare to play as a band in band rm,

cos im scare i will play wrong...

n tio punished....

but i if i neva play...

oso will tio say...

im confused... once again...

i wanna stay in euph...

i wanna play well...

but...

can i overcome failure?...

~ loner by heart ~

think it is easy to hang on?...

im reali feeling the pain now...

sobz...

it's reali difficult...

im studying so hard le...

i dun look lyk tat kind of person

hu will do timetable...

if i dun care, i wouldnt be crying nw...

luckily, no one saw me...

can i juz give up..

tis isnt a straight road...

it's a road... full of obstacles...

...

loner by heart...

back frm popular demand.... hahas...

jk...

haishx...

y... muz trouble always finds me...

my family probs...

parents divorce...

no place to stay...

wallet missing... posb card ... ez link... money...

results lyk sh!t...

wad can i do???!!!...

the more i tink about it, the more i worry...

no one is there, for me to lean on...

i may look cheerful in sch...

but at home... it;s a different thing...

i lock myself in my rm...

facing the emptyness...

wif my bro shouting n screaming outside...

y wont he understand???

pri 5 le...

young isnt an excuse...

i dont wanna face reality...

studies... family probs...

enough to make me give up...

y of all pp, me?...

im ill fated... tats y...

got 4 jies i wanna thank them...

jia qi...

joannas...

wen min...

**** **

=/... gotta pull through tis ... myself...

signing off... *loner by heart *...